This blog isn't about anything at all, but please, do read on.
You're goddamned right that I've got the audacity to claim that I'm better than someone. Fundamentally, we're all the same, made from the same molecules and atoms, and vibrating with the universe as best as we can, but when our minds grow and our egos develop and change us, we become sour. We don't want to go with the natural flow. We become far too self centered. I mean, I'm all for self preservation and putting oneself before others, but too much of me just wants oneness, togetherness, peace, and harmony.
You see, I've got a funny ego.
I know that I'm an amazing person with so much love to give that it literally hurts (because so many people don't know how to love or accept love, even in it's purest forms). I know my wisdom dwarfs a lot of the people I encounter on a daily basis. So much that I say flies over people's heads and it leads me to believe that there's something wrong with me.
There isn't.
I'm a thinker, so naturally, I over analyze everything. This leads to me second guessing myself and my abilities, which is never a good thing. That kind of thinking always, without skipping a beat, brings me to very dark places.
So my mind is almost always in a state of conflict. I know I'm great. I forget how great I am sometimes. I know how shitty a lot of the people around me are. They make me feel shitty sometimes.
Point being, if any point can be found in this mess, I am wise and humble enough to realize how small and insignificant I am, but I know that there are so many peons undeserving of their status in the world, and I know I'm better than those people.
Yeah.
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